Is It An Unpardonable Sin That Condemns One To Hell?
NO! According to Jesus there is only one unpardonable sin and that is to blaspheme the Holy Spirit. BE SURE TO READ THE NEXT SEVERAL PARAGRAPHS BEFORE YOU LEAVE!

Please Allow Me to Speak From The Heart...

This topic is especially serious to me... For many years I contemplated suicide. I can't tell you how debilitating it is to be sidetracked by a negative thought like that for so many years. Especially in my case... I am led by God and my only ambition is to serve Him. I wonder how that can be? I must say it was the constant contemplation of suicide that opened my eyes! The story I am going to tell you confirms... once again that "All things work for good for those who love the Lord." (that was paraphrased - as usual)

There are folks out there that will jump on this confession and sling a myriad of charges. These judgmental, hard-nosed accusers will have a field day with this. If you fit this category; have fun, enjoy your lack of understanding and your cold heart.

The revelation from my Lord: My father was on his death bed, in the hospital, just a few days before his death he received Jesus and was saved on his deathbed! I saw this! He was diabetic and all of his vital organs had been shutting down, he had lost a leg about a year prior, although he never considered suicide he was a prime candidate if anyone was! Had he taken his life he would not have been "saved" and would not have made it to the Kingdom of God! The act of suicide itself would not have condemned him but the fact that he had not been "saved" would have! We never know when the Lord will send HIS saving spirit to us! Throughout his life my father had opportunities to be "saved" or "begotten" but it was not until he had "nothing" that he finally accepted Christ - then he realized what a precious Savior we have in Jesus! I saw this and I ask all who are contemplating suicide to think about this! BELIEVE ME, when I say that those who have not truly been "saved" or 'begotten' MAY REALLY BELIEVE they have the knowledge... THEY DON'T!

Isn't Satan a smart little devil? Pun intended!

In my father's mind, he had "reasoned" that a loving God would not condemn him.

After he had received the Holy Spirit and was saved he had the wisdom of the Holy Spirit of God, sent by Jesus, to fully understand. We may think we know but we have no way of truly knowing until we are equipped with the knowledge and wisdom from the "saved" or "begotten" experience. At that moment you are in receipt of wisdom from God. For some the difference will be very noticeable, for others perhaps not remarkably different but a "knowing" in the heart of the "begotten" person.

For an in-depth understanding of the requirements to enter the Kingdom take a look at the following links that may help you understand. For a much broader understanding take a moment and read both pages that the links will take you; www.john33.com/judgement.htm <> www.john33.com/one-way-jesus. These pages will open in a new window. I wish the best for you and understanding! It's a great "trip!" Take the trip!

Let me continue... back to the topic of suicide...
When this negative spiritual influence invaded my mind, I was separated from God. While I was in this vulnerable state of mind I became depressed and had lost my confidence to overcome adversity. This is typical of a person who does not have the Godly influence and courage that comes from a oneness with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

Since that time I have returned to the Lord but I have not been able to completely rid myself of this negative thought. Perhaps I have not been able to forgive myself for sins that God has forgiven. We (people) are extremely complicated and I don't know the answer. I know that I have to live day-to-day and stay in prayer for strength.

I guess it's a test that I have not completely passed, yet. I know God will "spank" us when we slip and my "spanking" has been going on since 1990. I don't know "why" but my situation denies all laws of physics and "normal" results. I guess that makes it pretty much spiritual!

My inability to return to success in business is supernatural! The Lord has systematically disallowed me any substantial degree of financial success. I have lost my family, children, siblings, blood relations, as well as friends. There is no obvious reason but I trust God that there is a reason for these losses. I study the BOOK OF JOB regularly. I have gained much understanding through my hardships and trials but I am ready to begin living again if that is possible. If it is not possible, I pray for strength to endure. I have learned humility, one-letter-at-a-time. I guess I needed that!

The oldest written book in the bible is the book of JOB. This little book clearly describes a conspiracy! Satan comes to God and tells God that His servant Job would renounce God if Job lost his material wealth. God allowed Satan to take all of his material wealth as well as his children. Through all of this Job remains loyal to God!

Satan then tells God that if Job lost his health he would surely renounce God. God allowed Satan to inflict horrible pain and suffering upon Job. His wife tells him to curse God and die! Job refuses and remains loyal. His closest friends came against Job and tell him that it is all his fault! Job maintains his innocence and can't understand why God has allowed all of this loss, pain and suffering to befall him.

In the end Job is restored. Wealth, children and happiness are returned to Job. Job even realizes that he truly did not know God as well as he had thought! His relationship with God is greatly improved and Job is finally in full compliance with the will of God. The final lesson that we learn from this book is that if we remain faithful and trust God, we will receive the final, required, "spiritual physique" to enter the Kingdom...

Back to my testimony...

Amazingly enough, He has miraculously healed me of physical diseases (in my lifetime) such as cancer, as recently as two years ago (2002). He shows up in my life in certain areas and He makes me know it is supernatural but He will not bless me financially, or with people, on which to lean. It's like He is teaching me to trust in Him completely. It's tough! I suffer tremendously! There are days when I feel particularly knowledgeable and grateful for the learning experience... other days are filled with apprehension, stress and a feeling of persecution beyond expression! This is not imaginary! It's real and it's spiritual. Some of us are tested more than others. Indeed! Some of us feel the unknown more than others. To be more exact, some of us are more spiritual than others and are at war in the spiritual realm.

Once you realize that you are at war, a spiritual war, you may find an inner strength with which to fight the enemy!

Loneliness, depression, money problems, no friends, deserted by my children and friends to mention a few things. All unexplainable and defy all human reason. I am engaged in spiritual warfare! If you're reading this page, you (probably) are too! The enemy can and will do anything to weaken you! FIGHT! PRAY! HANG TOUGH!

By the way...
I don't know why... BUT... My children and family abandoned me a few days after I was diagnosed with cancer! I was facing chemo and radiation for 6 weeks, then major surgery. I was told by the doctors that at some point during my chemo and daily radiation, that I would need a driver to get me to the hospital each day for treatment. The hospital was 50 miles away. My sister helped while I was being prepared to begin treatment, then, she had to return to her home which is a thousand miles away. God kept me strong enough to care for myself. He knew my needs and took care of them. I actually remained strong enough to drive myself each day. The one friend I had left took care of my cat for three months.

Jesus will help you too! Ask Him.

My (one) dear friend let me stay with her for a week after I was discharged from the hospital. After that it was just my cat and me. My cat, BC, (Black Cat) was extremely caring! She knew I was very sick and suffering. A section of my colon had been removed. I finally became sick enough to go to the emergency room. They found that my colon was leaking into my body and I was going to have surgery again to repair it... I still had the staples from the surgery a few weeks prior... God spoke to me, He told me not to worry, He would take care of it.

God healed my colon in the hospital that night. The doctors were shocked the next morning when tests showed no signs of leaking anymore. No surgery!! I was NOT surprised! God had told me "not to worry about it." I was released a few hours later.

Yes, I know about tests! To make a living while recovering from MAJOR surgery is pretty much a miracle! It was shaky but God did provide! The horrible thing is... God had already healed me of cancer but the doctors did not believe and I was compelled to go ahead with the treatment. That's another story...

If I can make it day-to-day, you can too. When you are engaged in spiritual warfare you must call on your Spiritual Father, God, Jesus, The Holy Spirit and God's Angels to fight this enemy.

Pray! Ask Jesus for help!

Your family and friends may even come against you...
About one year later I revived a (golf) relationship with an old friend. He constantly accused me of being negative. He insisted that I did not display joy and happiness. His theory was that all people who are of God are happy and show it! His shortsighted ignorance was frustrating to say the least! I always felt certain that if he ever suffered one-tenth of the distress in my life, he would have 'buckled'... If you tend to agree with his theory, take a look at the prophets in the bible.. You won't find very many, if any, which were full of glee and displayed a carefree attitude. Can you imagine Isaiah or Ezekiel dancing through the tulips with a silly grin on their face while proclaiming the trials and conditions that God's people were going to endure?

I finally acknowledged the possibility that my accusing 'friend' was possibly not good for me. When you are engaged in spiritual warfare, you don't need anybody in your life that is not a true friend. It would be extremely helpful if you have someone who is of The Holy Spirit. Perhaps that is the reason for God removing these folks from my life???

Look at our savior, Jesus...
HE had every right to be saddened. HE knew what HE was facing and HIS heart was breaking for the failing of HIS people. Wonder if my old, accusing friend would have condemned the Son of God for feeling sadness?

The point is; sometimes there is a justifiable reason to be sad or unhappy! To be any other way would be sheer idiocy! However, WE MUST TRY TO OVERCOME IT! Learn to live with the pain, correct what we can and accept the rest as necessary for our test. Even if others can't feel your pain, persevere!

Many times, we could be helped if we felt that someone understood!
This may or may not be justified but it is real to the one suffering! Talk it out (if you have someone)... In my case I didn't have that "someone"... Just God... The creator of the universe will listen to me... That just might be enough! One thing is for certain, you'll have the opportunity to get to know HIM! Maybe that's the reason for this?

Sunday morning Christians won't be a great deal of help. They think that being a strong Christian is
to avoid sex, drugs, rock-n-roll, go to church on Sunday morning and after church, beat the rest of
the congregation to their favorite restaurant for a chicken dinner. Believe me! They don't have a clue... You've gotta get down! Get down and pray! Find a REAL spirit-filled Christian who knows the score! You've got me! If I can help I will! Don't forget that! You have Jesus and you have me! By the way, there's nothing wrong with a good chicken dinner after church! It's fun!

Be careful...
Sometimes we feel sorry for ourselves, we indulge in self-pity and bury ourselves in sorrow. You may even be slightly justified... Don't do that! Try! Overcome! Pray! Do something different! Pray more!

You may be special!
You have the opportunity to engage the spiritual enemy and win! Go deep! Look into your inner-being... are you called to engage the enemy in warfare? You know we are given these tests for a reason! We carry these victories into The Kingdom! Sound crazy? It's not!

Look at Jesus! HE knew HE was to suffer and die a hideous death on the cross. HE faced it! HIS reward? He was the FIRST BEGOTTEN SON OF GOD AND GOD'S ONLY TRUE SON! The rest of us become Sons and Daughters of God in SPIRIT ONLY. God was Jesus' Father FROM CONCEPTION! Jesus sits at the right hand of The Father! Jesus could have given up, taken the less painful way out. HE endured; HE accomplished HIS mission... THANK GOD HE DID! Now, let us endure! Let us try! Ask Jesus for help, HE knows what suffering and loneliness is all about.

To contemplate suicide may be a spiritual thing...
Or it can be a chemical imbalance... You owe it to yourself to find out which it is and get help. Get help from God, people and professionals, if medication helps, take the medication.

If a person is contemplating suicide, they should not base their decision to commit the act based on something they find on a web site. I can only tell you what I have found in my research on the topic.

Here's what Jesus had to say: Matthew, Chapter 12...

“Wherefore I say unto you, all manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men; but the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit shall never be forgiven unto men. And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come.”

Many People Are Taught That Suicide Is a Sure-Fire Ticket To Hell...

This is a man-made doctrine that has ruined many lives of the survivors of a suicide victim. This belief has even been responsible for a loved one (of a suicide victim) to commit suicide themselves.

The problem and danger of suicide; by taking your life, you may miss salvation that your Father had for you. Perhaps you were not destined to receive it until later when you were ready. We don't now these things! Pray that we can endure and receive God's complete plan for us. I pray that prayer for all of us at this moment, as I type!

Jesus died for our sins ~ all of them! I am not condoning suicide in any way but when it happens due to unbearable torture, unlivable pain, health problems, mental problems ~ whatever horrid condition drives a weak individual to such lengths ~ rest assured that Jesus paid for those sins with his own life. If that person had received salvation or was 'begotten' of God (been spiritually saved) prior to his/her death he/she is with the Lord. Better not to risk it.

My aunt lived out the last twenty years of her life depressed because her daughter committed suicide. My aunt went church-surfing trying to find relief. She ended up in a tongues-speaking church that convinced her that she herself was headed for hell if she didn't learn to speak in tongues... Another man-made doctrine! My poor aunt spent the rest of life faking the act of speaking in tongues and now she really knew her daughter was in hell because not only did her daughter take her own life but she never spoke in tongues! Those people who convinced my aunt of these man-made doctrines may experience the worst part of hell! (If it comes in degrees)

Organized Religion Can Be So Cruel And Non-Scriptural...

Trust in the word of God, not some ill-informed preacher who is passing on his ignorance and/or bias. Study for yourself! The truth will set you free!!! There is already enough to overcome.... Just overcoming the difference in the different versions (and translations) of the bible... without putting the man-made-doctrine "spin" on the teachings.

I can find no laws in the bible concerning suicide. It was mentioned in the Book of Job that it should be up to God to determine whether a person should live or die but there is no law concerning this act.

If a young healthy individual takes his/her own life (for selfish reasons) and leaves behind ~ people ~ family ~ friends who are hurting ~ I would question whether or not that individual was ever 'begotten' (saved or born-again) which is a requirement to enter the Kingdom of God. However, that is an area that we really can't judge we don't know the spiritual state of that person nor the pain or suffering that he/she is/was enduring.

Suicide is like any other sin that you yourself have committed. Jesus forgives your sins, just ask him. Please understand... If you have not been 'begotten' (born-again or saved) it doesn't matter how you die... According to the New Testament teachings... You won't make it into the Kingdom anyway.

Now don't kill yourself.... Trust in Jesus to bring you through tough times. I know you may think there is no hope ~ there is! Take it one second at a time and reach out to Jesus ( Yeshua ) to bring you through.

It's A Matter of Perspective...

I was twenty-one years of age... scuba diving off the coast of Yucatan, Mexico, the island of Cozumel. The strong current was taking me out to sea, I knew for a fact I was going to die. While knowing that I was surely going to die... I realized how insignificant all my seemingly big problems were. I realized that I really did not have any problems... if I could just get out of this situation I vowed I would live my life as though I had no problems.

Miraculously, I did make it out alive! Just barely but I made it! When I really get down I try to remember that feeling.

I read that survivors of suicide attempts... almost without exception... were sorry they had made that decision at that moment... the moment they executed the act... they wished they had not done it... but it was too late. Fortunately these people failed to die... So they could tell us... "Don't Do It"...

Don't find a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Turn to Jesus! One day at a time... NO... One minute at a time... then one hour at a time... before you know it... It will pass!

REMEMBER! These matters are interpreted differently by each of us... Don't risk your eternal soul by committing suicide... Stay the course and keep the faith. HANG ON! Jesus is coming soon... or you'll be going HIS way soon enough!

Your Friend,

John

Here's another link dealing with suicide

Here's a good link.... http://www.fbinstitute.com/McCormick/UNPARDONABLE.html

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